“A little at a time until less becomes more and more becomes less on the other side.” 

Johnnie dent jr.

I’ve been loosing focus lately. Not for lack of trying, but I’ve got so much on my plate and so many things I want to accomplish, that I’m having a hard time focusing. Does that ever happen to you? When you are trying so hard to do everything you can to be successful that you come up a little short everywhere?

The workouts are still getting done. I’m still feeling an increase in my strength, but they’ve been harder to do the last few days. I have felt more tired… dare I say, lazy! They have definitely amped up this next phase I’m doing. Which is great because no one works out with the intention of not progressing, but I’m having to focus a lot more on what I’m doing and there is definitely no time to get inside my head. Yet I’m still getting inside my own head! Why?!? So frustrating. It feels like I can’t do anything right, then I almost feel like I don’t even want to try. I know this feeling all too well, because it happens often enough to me. My plan this time is to listen and then let it go. I’m just going to push that negativity aside.

Anyways, my plan is to just get through the next batch of workouts as scheduled until I can overcome this hurdle, this feeling of defeat and unworthiness. My results have been amazing thus far, so I know this is just another blip in my journey. Something to derail me from my goals and from my reason for doing this program. 100 days is a long time and not every day will be rainbows and butterflies, even though we wish it would!

I feel like the brain knows when you are getting close to completion of something and then decides to f*** with you. That’s when my mean girl comes storming in telling me I can’t do it anymore. She’s testing me to see how bad I really want it. Well…. I’m sorry sister, I can do this and I will! Does anyone else have issues with their mean girls trying to get the best of them? If so, you have got the read “Mastering your Mean Girl!” She really breaks it down so you understand what is causing your hesitations, lack of motivation, mindfulness and overwhelm. Highly enjoyed it and learned a lot as well.

My nutrition has been subpar this week. There has been a lot going on, so my amazing mama brought over a bunch of homemade chilli and lasagna for me. The problem is that there was so much food and I am NOT someone who wastes food. I grew up with a single mom who worked two jobs to support me. She taught me the value of working hard and providing for yourself. Half of that meant budgeting, planning and preparing. It must be why I have become a self sufficient individual who really dislikes asking for support! She had instilled these qualities into me, but now when I prep too much food or have something come up for dinner plans, I find myself struggling to finish what I’ve made so it doesn’t get thrown into the garbage! Catch 22 I guess.

Today also marks my 2 weeks without any alcohol! 2 more weeks to go…. is anyone looking to jump on board for them? Like I said… I’m not a huge drinker, but definitely enjoy the occasional few glasses of wine or beer. But I figured for one month, it was worth detoxing to see if my results will vary during this program. So far, I haven’t noticed much of a change.. but two weeks can make a huge difference!

The biggest take away this week for me is to not let my mean girl tell me I am not capable. We are all going to experience bad days, weeks, maybe even months! The key is to stick with it and know that it’s just your brain testing you… telling you that you aren’t capable, aren’t worthy. Push through. The more consistency you can build in your routine and push through those tough workouts or tough times in your life, the more resilient you will become. We all have the ability to be great. To live our best life. Once you get to a point of craving your workouts, even on those tough days, you will know that you have succeed. You have built a routine that is now part of your lifestyle. You have chosen a healthy habit which will help you reach your goals and become more successful than ever. That’s truly all it takes. Persistence.

See you next time ❤